WHAT IS THE ONE THING THAT YOU DO, THAT HELPS YOU BE THE BEST YOU CAN BE?
I often wake up with a heavy feeling hovering above me like a dark stormy cloud; and most of the time I’m responsible for allowing negativity to weigh me down.
My dreams have always been the same almost as far back as my memory goes I have always known my destiny.
I couldn’t always pinpoint it because I didn’t only want to be an actress, I wanted to be a doctor and a lawyer too. I just wanted to help people. A doctor because I lost my only brother to a drug overdose and I know in my heart that he could have been saved. And a lawyer because my heart aches when I read and see the news of social injustices that are happening in our country and all over the world. It’s like I carry their pain with me.
My dreams of gracing the Broadway stage are mine, my hearts completely still and I’m the happiest when the curtain comes up. It’s a feeling of fear and bliss combined and for a second I forget myself and completely walk in another mans shoes. Which by fault has lead me to believe that my passion for the arts has lead me to feel so very strongly about people who are suffering and have nobody to help them.
So what keeps me going? It’s the memory of my brother as he said he’d be the “first to buy a ticket to my broadway show.” It’s the fact that because he lived I will make sure no little girl has to bury her brother and carry this hurt I feel.
And on those days when I wake up completely overwhelmed by the darkness of the world that we live in, I take a deep breath and remind myself that I’m going to shift the plates and realign the axis. That I will come into peoples homes whether from their TV sets or as a starving young lawyer hungry to change the world and I will make them feel loved.
I’m still that wide eyed tomboy and I’m so happy not to ever grow up. Because as long as I’m here I will continue to see the world not as it is, but as it should be.
actress . law student